I knew becoming a hypnotist and learning how to conduct hypnotherapy would be changing. I did not realize that in my training, I would be undergoing therapy myself. Full disclosure: I underwent my first age regression about two weeks ago. I revisited the day I graduated high school… a day I hadn’t thought of in years, if not close to two decades.
When I learned we would be conducting regressions that day, my mind began to fret: What if I don’t know where to go? What if I can’tthink of the right experience? What if I can’t get to where I need to be? First of all, when under hypnosis, the subject is not actively thinking. Secondly, I’ve since realized that the subconscious is fully capable of accessing the appropriate [right] memory, and that this brain of mine can absolutely take me wherever I need to go.
While observing and interacting with my 17-year old self, I learned from her. I realized certain things I have often joked about are actually a source of guilt and shame that had left me defensive, insecure and seeking approval as an adult.
During this journey toward becoming a hypnotherapist, I have been working on remaining centered and present during charged situations. In the past, I was reactive, sometimes volatile and always super emotional under certain circumstances. I can’t fathom how many times I’ve said, “I just want to be understood.” Feeling misunderstood hurt. And in an effort to combat that pain, my inner two-year old (AKA my subconscious mind) would rear her loud, snarky, dismissive and condescending head to make sure she was heard… Unfortunately, being heard and understood are two very different things.
Until I did the age regression, I never understood why I reacted or felt the way I did. The carnivorous plant that presented itself during the session had surely rooted much earlier in my childhood… but the experience I revisited helped my conscious, adult mind recognize how that seed, that belief has manifested in the present. In acquiring this knowledge, I have the information necessary to reprogram this little glitch in my programming.
And it’s working!
I now recognize that I don’t need improve my communication skills; I need to feel safe to lovingly express myself. I am embracing my unique way of thinking and in doing so, preparing to help a lot of people. I created new hypnotic suggestions for myself based on the experience, and as a result, I am realizing changes in my responses to others.
It is extremely empowering to realize I can quite literally change my mind. In the past, I plead the “that’s just how I am” case. Never again will I make such a poor excuse for my bad behavior…
I returned from the regression, sat up wide-eyed, and said “WOA! That was a wild ride.”